Dear Deployment,
I wanted to thank you, for helping us grow so much. For making me stronger by having to go through something like this. We have grown so much closer despite having been so far apart. You have helped us to become more financially stable, as well as build confidence in ourselves and our relationship knowing that if we can get through this, we can get through anything. Deployment, I hated you at first, but that hate has disappeared, because you have given me much more than I ever expected. I can not wait to be in the arms of my sailor again, and I can not wait for him to meet his new and improved little boy. :)
Sincerely yours,
A happy Navy wife. <3
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Done with the challenge!
Finally. I've been putting off the last few posts lately, but I'm finally done. :)
So I have so much I want to talk about in here. For one, I have made a big decision for my life in this last week. I decided that I am going to pursue my bachelor's degree in nursing. I of course will have to finish my associates. But once I get that done i will start working on my bachelor's. I am so excited. I have never known anyone to ever be as excited about school as I am. I love being back in school and I love planning my future semesters and how I will work things out. I LOVE IT! :) Oh and also I am pretty much all set up for next semester back in Florida. Everything is in and registration starts this week so I can actually start signing up for my classes to. And the last step will just be to finish this semester with all A's and not to forget my transcript once it's time to leave.
Things are going well in the financial department as well. We have about $3000 in savings now. Which is awesome for only starting 2 months ago. I can't wait for income tax. Hopefully that will be another $6000 like we got this year and I will also be getting financial aid again. We won't have all of what we are saving up when we get back because December is going to be one of the most expensive months for us. So it is definitely a good thing we are saving. :) First of all, it's Christmas! I already started writing down what I should get for everyone, and I want to start slowly buying things now, that way I am not swamped with buying all these gifts at the last minute. Also, it is Joey's birthday. So I will kind of be combining his bday with Christmas but not really. Maybe like that week before or after but I will only buy him the birthday gifts and those will be for bday and xmas. He won't remember! And then that will be when Mark is coming back from deployment. So at the beginning of the semester I will be flying out to see him for homecoming, which will be a roundtrip ticket so I can come back here. Then on the 22nd his leave starts so he will fly here that day. And then about a week and a half later or so it will be time to DRIVE back to Florida for good. I can't wait!
I am also excited about something else. Well Mark's cousin Carrie is pregnant with her first baby. She is only 19 and her boyfriend is being a douche and has been good and been there this whole pregnancy and today she just told me he hasn't called or seen her in 2 weeks. So she changed her number and doesn't want anything to do with him anymore. She only has about a month and a half left or so. Well a few weeks back me and Mark were talking about them and we both agreed that we would love for her to come live with us. But we definitely didn't think she would want to. I had planned to talk to her about it when I felt was a good time, but I wasn't counting on it. I didn't think she'd want to leave and go so far away and be away from Martin even if they weren't together. Well when I found out about him not talking to her I told her about this and she actually said she was thinking about the same thing and has wanted to ask us about it at some point. That made me so happy! I can't even explain. I love Carrie so much and she deserves so much better than that guy and also deserves better than having to live with her parents because they are really not that great to her. I don't feel that their house would be the best environment for her and her new baby. So I am hoping that this plan stays in place and she really decides to leave with us when we do. Because we were both serious about it, we just didn't think she would be up for leaving. So hopefully it all works out and again I can't wait for this either. :)
OK well that is all for my night of babbling. "What are you babbling about?" I haven't made a REAL post in almost 2 months so it was about time. Goodnight.
So I have so much I want to talk about in here. For one, I have made a big decision for my life in this last week. I decided that I am going to pursue my bachelor's degree in nursing. I of course will have to finish my associates. But once I get that done i will start working on my bachelor's. I am so excited. I have never known anyone to ever be as excited about school as I am. I love being back in school and I love planning my future semesters and how I will work things out. I LOVE IT! :) Oh and also I am pretty much all set up for next semester back in Florida. Everything is in and registration starts this week so I can actually start signing up for my classes to. And the last step will just be to finish this semester with all A's and not to forget my transcript once it's time to leave.
Things are going well in the financial department as well. We have about $3000 in savings now. Which is awesome for only starting 2 months ago. I can't wait for income tax. Hopefully that will be another $6000 like we got this year and I will also be getting financial aid again. We won't have all of what we are saving up when we get back because December is going to be one of the most expensive months for us. So it is definitely a good thing we are saving. :) First of all, it's Christmas! I already started writing down what I should get for everyone, and I want to start slowly buying things now, that way I am not swamped with buying all these gifts at the last minute. Also, it is Joey's birthday. So I will kind of be combining his bday with Christmas but not really. Maybe like that week before or after but I will only buy him the birthday gifts and those will be for bday and xmas. He won't remember! And then that will be when Mark is coming back from deployment. So at the beginning of the semester I will be flying out to see him for homecoming, which will be a roundtrip ticket so I can come back here. Then on the 22nd his leave starts so he will fly here that day. And then about a week and a half later or so it will be time to DRIVE back to Florida for good. I can't wait!
I am also excited about something else. Well Mark's cousin Carrie is pregnant with her first baby. She is only 19 and her boyfriend is being a douche and has been good and been there this whole pregnancy and today she just told me he hasn't called or seen her in 2 weeks. So she changed her number and doesn't want anything to do with him anymore. She only has about a month and a half left or so. Well a few weeks back me and Mark were talking about them and we both agreed that we would love for her to come live with us. But we definitely didn't think she would want to. I had planned to talk to her about it when I felt was a good time, but I wasn't counting on it. I didn't think she'd want to leave and go so far away and be away from Martin even if they weren't together. Well when I found out about him not talking to her I told her about this and she actually said she was thinking about the same thing and has wanted to ask us about it at some point. That made me so happy! I can't even explain. I love Carrie so much and she deserves so much better than that guy and also deserves better than having to live with her parents because they are really not that great to her. I don't feel that their house would be the best environment for her and her new baby. So I am hoping that this plan stays in place and she really decides to leave with us when we do. Because we were both serious about it, we just didn't think she would be up for leaving. So hopefully it all works out and again I can't wait for this either. :)
OK well that is all for my night of babbling. "What are you babbling about?" I haven't made a REAL post in almost 2 months so it was about time. Goodnight.
Day 30::
Your favorite song.
Oh I have way to many for this. In country it would be anything by Carrie Underwood, or Zac Brown Band I love them. In hip hop r&b rap whatever it's Lil Wayne- I'm single. I haven't listened to very much rock in a while but my favorite will always be anything by Cold or Deftones.
Oh I have way to many for this. In country it would be anything by Carrie Underwood, or Zac Brown Band I love them. In hip hop r&b rap whatever it's Lil Wayne- I'm single. I haven't listened to very much rock in a while but my favorite will always be anything by Cold or Deftones.
Day 29::
In this past month, what have you learned?
I have learned a little better how to manage our money. Well more like in the last 2 months. I don't know about anything else haha. I can't think right now.
I have learned a little better how to manage our money. Well more like in the last 2 months. I don't know about anything else haha. I can't think right now.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Day 28::
A picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Last year after my baby shower in October.
A little over a week ago at our OP Love photo shoot.
The difference between then and now.... well the most obvious is that this time last year I was pregnant for the first time with my little one. And now I am the mother of an almost 1 year old. It is so crazy to believe how much a year changes things. Another thing is, I was definitely happy last year. Things were going very well and we were preparing for out baby, but financially it was a little tough still. Now I am pretty much very close to the happiest I have ever been in life. I have the most precious little boy in the world, the most wonderful loving husband in the world, and we are doing so much better now. I am finally back in school and loving it. We are better off financially now. And we are almost through with our first deployment. I am so grateful for my life right now.
Last year after my baby shower in October.
A little over a week ago at our OP Love photo shoot.
The difference between then and now.... well the most obvious is that this time last year I was pregnant for the first time with my little one. And now I am the mother of an almost 1 year old. It is so crazy to believe how much a year changes things. Another thing is, I was definitely happy last year. Things were going very well and we were preparing for out baby, but financially it was a little tough still. Now I am pretty much very close to the happiest I have ever been in life. I have the most precious little boy in the world, the most wonderful loving husband in the world, and we are doing so much better now. I am finally back in school and loving it. We are better off financially now. And we are almost through with our first deployment. I am so grateful for my life right now.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Day 27::
Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
It was just something to do to have something to write about. But since then I haven't written anything else BESIDES these things. I'll probably get back into my normal posts once I finish these. :)
It was just something to do to have something to write about. But since then I haven't written anything else BESIDES these things. I'll probably get back into my normal posts once I finish these. :)
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day 26::
What do you think about your friends?
Of the few best friends that I do have, I can definitely say they are some of the best people in the world. I could not see my life without them, whether I see them everyday, or every 3 years. I love them all the same and I would never trade them.
Of the few best friends that I do have, I can definitely say they are some of the best people in the world. I could not see my life without them, whether I see them everyday, or every 3 years. I love them all the same and I would never trade them.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Day 25::
What I would find in your bag.
In my purse I have a bunch of junk basically, stuff I don't HAVE to have in there, but do. I have my wallet, which I do need obviously, my camera, some perfume, a pen, receipts, some nail polish, a necklace, and I can't think of anything else. That actually isn't a lot at all, but I have a small purse and kind of a big wallet so it kinda is. I definitely never want to have a purse as big as my moms. She has such a huge purse and seriously does carry around a bunch of crap that she doesn't have to carry around. I can't imagine having to carry around that big thing everyday.
In my purse I have a bunch of junk basically, stuff I don't HAVE to have in there, but do. I have my wallet, which I do need obviously, my camera, some perfume, a pen, receipts, some nail polish, a necklace, and I can't think of anything else. That actually isn't a lot at all, but I have a small purse and kind of a big wallet so it kinda is. I definitely never want to have a purse as big as my moms. She has such a huge purse and seriously does carry around a bunch of crap that she doesn't have to carry around. I can't imagine having to carry around that big thing everyday.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Day 24::
A letter to your parents-
First of all - I found the card! haha. That was a huge relief. Thank goodness!!!!
Mk....
Dear mom,
I hope you know that no matter what, I love you and appreciate everything you have ever done. Now that I am older I understand so much more. There are still things that I think you can change or work on, but overall you do the best job you can as a mom. I know that this whole ordeal with dad has been tough on you, and I am so sorry that you had to go through this, but hopefully in the end it will make you a much stronger woman. I am proud of you. I love you to death. < 3
Dear dad,
I have already written a letter to you recently, so there isn't a whole lot to say at this time. I still love you no matter what, and I hope that we can be ok at some point. I will always remember the days when I was "daddy's girl", just like your shirt says. :) I love you so much, that's all I can really say. Through all of this, you are still my dad, and I love you. < 3
First of all - I found the card! haha. That was a huge relief. Thank goodness!!!!
Mk....
Dear mom,
I hope you know that no matter what, I love you and appreciate everything you have ever done. Now that I am older I understand so much more. There are still things that I think you can change or work on, but overall you do the best job you can as a mom. I know that this whole ordeal with dad has been tough on you, and I am so sorry that you had to go through this, but hopefully in the end it will make you a much stronger woman. I am proud of you. I love you to death. < 3
Dear dad,
I have already written a letter to you recently, so there isn't a whole lot to say at this time. I still love you no matter what, and I hope that we can be ok at some point. I will always remember the days when I was "daddy's girl", just like your shirt says. :) I love you so much, that's all I can really say. Through all of this, you are still my dad, and I love you. < 3
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Day 23::
Something you crave for a lot...
Candy.
I am not in the mood to explain right now. I just love it. Anyway, I'm in deep shit. I lost our freaking bank card. I went to eat with my sister, paid with it and stuck it in my pocket until I got Joey in the car, took her back to school, then went to HEB to get a few things and couldn't find it. I had forgot to put it back in my purse once I got in the car before. And now it's gone. I have no idea what could have happened to it. This sucks. And the bank won't let me call and cancel the card because my name isn't on the account. Ugh he should have freakin gave me the power of attorney before he left. Damnit. Just in case anything ever happens. Everyone kept telling him to do that but no. So now I just have to wait until he gets my email and calls and cancels it. Hopefully no one has used it by then. Crap!!!!!!!!!!
Candy.
I am not in the mood to explain right now. I just love it. Anyway, I'm in deep shit. I lost our freaking bank card. I went to eat with my sister, paid with it and stuck it in my pocket until I got Joey in the car, took her back to school, then went to HEB to get a few things and couldn't find it. I had forgot to put it back in my purse once I got in the car before. And now it's gone. I have no idea what could have happened to it. This sucks. And the bank won't let me call and cancel the card because my name isn't on the account. Ugh he should have freakin gave me the power of attorney before he left. Damnit. Just in case anything ever happens. Everyone kept telling him to do that but no. So now I just have to wait until he gets my email and calls and cancels it. Hopefully no one has used it by then. Crap!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Day 22::
What makes you different from everyone else..
Well I think one thing is that I consider myself extremely motivated when it comes to my future. I feel like nothing can stop me forever. I also think I have a lot more common sense then most people.
Well I think one thing is that I consider myself extremely motivated when it comes to my future. I feel like nothing can stop me forever. I also think I have a lot more common sense then most people.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Day 21::
A picture of something that makes you happy.
I LOOOOOVEEEEE LOVE LOVE sleeping. I can never get enough sleep. It's probably my favorite thing to do. :)
I LOOOOOVEEEEE LOVE LOVE sleeping. I can never get enough sleep. It's probably my favorite thing to do. :)
Friday, September 17, 2010
Day 20::
Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future..
Uh, my super awesome amazing beautiful hubby of course! There's NO ONE else I'd rather be with ever. We have 6 1/2 years under our sleeve so far and I can't wait until we're old and gray and can say we have been together for 66 1/2 years! :) Or more. Hopefully we live that long haha.)
I love you poopy face! < 3
Uh, my super awesome amazing beautiful hubby of course! There's NO ONE else I'd rather be with ever. We have 6 1/2 years under our sleeve so far and I can't wait until we're old and gray and can say we have been together for 66 1/2 years! :) Or more. Hopefully we live that long haha.)
I love you poopy face! < 3
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Day 19::
Nicknames you have and why you have them.
I really only have 2 nicknames. The first one is Panda, which mainly only 2 of my cousins call me. That's just always been what they called me. And then my other one, which should pretty much be my name because it's what everyone says, is Manda. Just taking away the first A, but I almost like it better haha.
I really only have 2 nicknames. The first one is Panda, which mainly only 2 of my cousins call me. That's just always been what they called me. And then my other one, which should pretty much be my name because it's what everyone says, is Manda. Just taking away the first A, but I almost like it better haha.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Day 18::
Plans/dreams/goals you have..
I have one, or I guess two now, set goals in life. First of all, this was a goal made before my little one was even a mere thought in our minds, my goal for life has been to finish college and get my associates so I can get into Nursing school. Now, I want to prove that it can still be done with a child in your list of distractions. My mom is 43 and is still trying to complete her basics and get into the nursing program. I hope that she can finally do it soon, but I also want to make her proud that I was able to accomplish it even with a child.
Now that Joseph is here, I have another goal/plan/dream for life, and that is to raise a healthy, happy, intelligent, sweet, kind, beautiful little boy and make him proud as his mama. I want him to know that no matter what he does that I will always be proud of him and accept him and support him through it all. I want him to know he can always come home to us and come to us with any problems. And I want him to know that he is loved, not just by materialistic things, but really loved. I want to show him always that I love him completely. < 3
I have one, or I guess two now, set goals in life. First of all, this was a goal made before my little one was even a mere thought in our minds, my goal for life has been to finish college and get my associates so I can get into Nursing school. Now, I want to prove that it can still be done with a child in your list of distractions. My mom is 43 and is still trying to complete her basics and get into the nursing program. I hope that she can finally do it soon, but I also want to make her proud that I was able to accomplish it even with a child.
Now that Joseph is here, I have another goal/plan/dream for life, and that is to raise a healthy, happy, intelligent, sweet, kind, beautiful little boy and make him proud as his mama. I want him to know that no matter what he does that I will always be proud of him and accept him and support him through it all. I want him to know he can always come home to us and come to us with any problems. And I want him to know that he is loved, not just by materialistic things, but really loved. I want to show him always that I love him completely. < 3
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Day 17::
Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.
Right now that would without a doubt be my hubby. I would want to see exactly what he does everyday, and to see how Africa is. :) It would be very interesting. I would want to see how he works and spends his time when he isn't working.. because there is nothing to do there. But most of all I would want to switch with him so that he could, for at least one day, see his baby boy after all this time. So he could spend that whole day with him getting to know him since he's grown and do everything he hasn't been able to do with him so far and see everything about him that he hasn't been able to. That would be the best anniversary gift I could give him, if it were possible. And now I really wish it was. We can't wait for you to come home daddy! < 3
Right now that would without a doubt be my hubby. I would want to see exactly what he does everyday, and to see how Africa is. :) It would be very interesting. I would want to see how he works and spends his time when he isn't working.. because there is nothing to do there. But most of all I would want to switch with him so that he could, for at least one day, see his baby boy after all this time. So he could spend that whole day with him getting to know him since he's grown and do everything he hasn't been able to do with him so far and see everything about him that he hasn't been able to. That would be the best anniversary gift I could give him, if it were possible. And now I really wish it was. We can't wait for you to come home daddy! < 3
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Day 16::
Another picture of yourself.
This was my fun picture night with Joseph. Love my little booger. < 3
This was my fun picture night with Joseph. Love my little booger. < 3
Friday, September 10, 2010
Day 15::
Put you ipod (itunes) on shuffle: first 10 songs that play:
1. DJ Tiesto - Eternity
2. Underoath - Alone in December
3. NB Ridaz - I Wanna Love You
4. Lil Wayne - Back on my Grizzy
5. HIM - Razorblade Kiss
6. The Who & Peter Townsend - Let My Love Open the Door
7. Carrie Underwood - Look At Me
8. Fear Before the March of Flames - The God Awful Truth
9. 2Pac - Young Niggas
10. Melissa Ethridge - I'm the Only One
1. DJ Tiesto - Eternity
2. Underoath - Alone in December
3. NB Ridaz - I Wanna Love You
4. Lil Wayne - Back on my Grizzy
5. HIM - Razorblade Kiss
6. The Who & Peter Townsend - Let My Love Open the Door
7. Carrie Underwood - Look At Me
8. Fear Before the March of Flames - The God Awful Truth
9. 2Pac - Young Niggas
10. Melissa Ethridge - I'm the Only One
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Day 14::
A picture of you and your family..
This is a favorite topic of mine. I think my husband and I have created a beautiful family so far. :) I think we look so nice together. I have a few favorite pics so I will just post a few.
This was one of our first family pictures together. < 3
Our first Christmas as a family.
I love this Easter picture. It came out nice (besides being blurry) even though we did it ourselves with the camera timer.
One of our last nights with daddy before he left.
This is a favorite topic of mine. I think my husband and I have created a beautiful family so far. :) I think we look so nice together. I have a few favorite pics so I will just post a few.
This was one of our first family pictures together. < 3
Our first Christmas as a family.
I love this Easter picture. It came out nice (besides being blurry) even though we did it ourselves with the camera timer.
One of our last nights with daddy before he left.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Day 13::
A letter to someone who has hurt you recently...
Well this is by now a very well known situation. And he didn't exactly hurt ME personally, but what he did still did affect me very much. This is to my dad.
Dear daddy,
I'm sorry that our relationship is forever going to be tainted because of your mistake. I hate what you did, but I will never hate you. I hope that one day we can be normal again, and I know that all that it takes is me to be able to forgive you and move on, but it'll be hard. I love you, always will.
Manda
Well this is by now a very well known situation. And he didn't exactly hurt ME personally, but what he did still did affect me very much. This is to my dad.
Dear daddy,
I'm sorry that our relationship is forever going to be tainted because of your mistake. I hate what you did, but I will never hate you. I hope that one day we can be normal again, and I know that all that it takes is me to be able to forgive you and move on, but it'll be hard. I love you, always will.
Manda
Day 12::
How you found out about blogger and why you have one...
I found out about blogger just by browsing. And I love having an online journal, I have always had one since before I started high school. First it was greatestjournal, then I made myself a livejournal and had both of those. Then greatestjournal died so I was just left with livejournal. Then I found blogger, made one and kept them both, until now, and I basically just use this mostly. :)
I found out about blogger just by browsing. And I love having an online journal, I have always had one since before I started high school. First it was greatestjournal, then I made myself a livejournal and had both of those. Then greatestjournal died so I was just left with livejournal. Then I found blogger, made one and kept them both, until now, and I basically just use this mostly. :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
Day 11::
Another picture of you and your friends...
Well I guess I forgot that I did have one more recent pic of us from early this year when we came home for vacation.
This was in February during our late baby shower. That was a fun night. :)
Well I guess I forgot that I did have one more recent pic of us from early this year when we came home for vacation.
This was in February during our late baby shower. That was a fun night. :)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Day 10::
Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad...
I pretty much just listen to the same stuff all the time. I guess when I'm feeling in the lovey mood I listen to country. But for the most part I just listen to hip hop and country, at least in the car. There hasn't been very many new rock artists that I really like anymore, I don't really look for them either though. Except for that Jonny Craig guy. He's awesome. So I listen to him a lot also.
I pretty much just listen to the same stuff all the time. I guess when I'm feeling in the lovey mood I listen to country. But for the most part I just listen to hip hop and country, at least in the car. There hasn't been very many new rock artists that I really like anymore, I don't really look for them either though. Except for that Jonny Craig guy. He's awesome. So I listen to him a lot also.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Day 9::
Something you're proud of in the past few days-
Well for starters I am proud of the $700 we were able to put in savings this last paycheck. That puts us at $2,200 in savings now. Which is something we've never had just put away before. Haha it's kinda funny when I think about it because that's basically just one of our paychecks, but honestly, how many people can actually afford to have $2000 in savings after just a month and a half. Not many, well at least not many people like us. So our savings is definitely something I am proud of right now.
I am also proud of starting back up in school. It's been a while but I'm back! :)
Well for starters I am proud of the $700 we were able to put in savings this last paycheck. That puts us at $2,200 in savings now. Which is something we've never had just put away before. Haha it's kinda funny when I think about it because that's basically just one of our paychecks, but honestly, how many people can actually afford to have $2000 in savings after just a month and a half. Not many, well at least not many people like us. So our savings is definitely something I am proud of right now.
I am also proud of starting back up in school. It's been a while but I'm back! :)
Friday, September 3, 2010
Day 8::
Short term goals for this month...
1. Push myself in school, the better I do the happier I'll be doing it!
2. Get Joey to start standing.. but we're in no hurry of course. :)
3. Finish paying off my credit card.
4. Take nice pictures at the end of the month for daddy.
5. Start up a book, or folder, of recipes so that I can cook for Mark when we're back home.
6. Find Joey a halloween costume. :)
7. Make wise choices financially and otherwise.
8. ... Finish watching the degrassi episodes. haha. (I couldn't think of one last thing.)
1. Push myself in school, the better I do the happier I'll be doing it!
2. Get Joey to start standing.. but we're in no hurry of course. :)
3. Finish paying off my credit card.
4. Take nice pictures at the end of the month for daddy.
5. Start up a book, or folder, of recipes so that I can cook for Mark when we're back home.
6. Find Joey a halloween costume. :)
7. Make wise choices financially and otherwise.
8. ... Finish watching the degrassi episodes. haha. (I couldn't think of one last thing.)
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day 7::
A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you. Well I can't just choose one so, I'm sure you know who my 2 people will be.
First, the love of my life...
We met at the end of 9th grade and have been inseparable since. He taught me what it's like to really love someone for who they are. He didn't have the best life, he couldn't buy me what I wanted, he didn't have a car to take me on dates or drive me home, he didn't even have a great paying job. But none of that mattered to me. I loved him for him, all the way through. He has stuck with me this long and I am grateful for that. He is someone I can trust and depend on always, and I know that he will never let me down. Now that we are older he has turned his life into something and he not only did it for himself, but for us. I remember him telling me that, when I was so upset that he joined the Navy, he told me "I am doing this for us." I can't believe someone could really love me as much as he does. We have come so far and I love where we are and the life we have together, and the life we CREATED together. I love you markypoo < 3.
Next, is the second love of my life :). If it wasn't for the above, he wouldn't even be here.
This little boy has changed my life so much. I feel like I have grown up a ton in the last year. From finding out I was pregnant, to finding out there were complications, to finally seeing him with my own eyes, it really made me realize that life is too short and you can't dwell on things. We are lucky that he recovered as quickly as he did, or that he even recovered at all. I hate to say that, but it has happened. I am so grateful that my little boy survived and was a tough one and stuck around to make his mommy and daddy the proudest people in the world. Everything I do now and have planned for my future is not only for me, but for him as well. I want him to be able to say that my world not only revolved around him, but that I made the best of my future so that he could have the best life. I love this boy more than words could ever possibly explain. He is my whole life and I hope he always knows that. I love you little munchkin! < 3
First, the love of my life...
We met at the end of 9th grade and have been inseparable since. He taught me what it's like to really love someone for who they are. He didn't have the best life, he couldn't buy me what I wanted, he didn't have a car to take me on dates or drive me home, he didn't even have a great paying job. But none of that mattered to me. I loved him for him, all the way through. He has stuck with me this long and I am grateful for that. He is someone I can trust and depend on always, and I know that he will never let me down. Now that we are older he has turned his life into something and he not only did it for himself, but for us. I remember him telling me that, when I was so upset that he joined the Navy, he told me "I am doing this for us." I can't believe someone could really love me as much as he does. We have come so far and I love where we are and the life we have together, and the life we CREATED together. I love you markypoo < 3.
Next, is the second love of my life :). If it wasn't for the above, he wouldn't even be here.
This little boy has changed my life so much. I feel like I have grown up a ton in the last year. From finding out I was pregnant, to finding out there were complications, to finally seeing him with my own eyes, it really made me realize that life is too short and you can't dwell on things. We are lucky that he recovered as quickly as he did, or that he even recovered at all. I hate to say that, but it has happened. I am so grateful that my little boy survived and was a tough one and stuck around to make his mommy and daddy the proudest people in the world. Everything I do now and have planned for my future is not only for me, but for him as well. I want him to be able to say that my world not only revolved around him, but that I made the best of my future so that he could have the best life. I love this boy more than words could ever possibly explain. He is my whole life and I hope he always knows that. I love you little munchkin! < 3
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Day 6::
A favorite super hero and why....
This is a tough one. I was never really into the superhero thing. I guess if I had to choose one it would be spiderman just because I was more into that when the new movies started coming out and my little brother loved them. The movies are pretty awesome.
This is a tough one. I was never really into the superhero thing. I guess if I had to choose one it would be spiderman just because I was more into that when the new movies started coming out and my little brother loved them. The movies are pretty awesome.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Day 5::
A picture of somewhere I have been to.
Chicago!!! I loved it there, even though I was only there for a weekend, it was pretty awesome. I really hope to go there again someday. We went there for Mark's graduation from boot camp. But.... next year I will most likely be able to say I've been to Italy! :) Can't wait for that one.
Chicago!!! I loved it there, even though I was only there for a weekend, it was pretty awesome. I really hope to go there again someday. We went there for Mark's graduation from boot camp. But.... next year I will most likely be able to say I've been to Italy! :) Can't wait for that one.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Day 4::
A habit that I wish I didn’t have.
Well, I guess one that I really hate is getting worked up very easily. Sometimes people can say something and I don't answer back calmly, I snap back all crazy. I guess if it's something that offends me or if someone is accusing me of something, I just very defensive right away instead of trying to answer or talk about it calmly first. That is very annoying to me. I do it all the time, but after I do it I'm like gosh shut up what's wrong with you. I've been trying to not do that lately, especially when I'm talking to Mark.
Well, I guess one that I really hate is getting worked up very easily. Sometimes people can say something and I don't answer back calmly, I snap back all crazy. I guess if it's something that offends me or if someone is accusing me of something, I just very defensive right away instead of trying to answer or talk about it calmly first. That is very annoying to me. I do it all the time, but after I do it I'm like gosh shut up what's wrong with you. I've been trying to not do that lately, especially when I'm talking to Mark.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Day 3::
Post a picture of you and your friends. This is actually a tough one because my friends and I don't ever take pictures together. The last ones I have of us are from like 2 years ago right before I moved to Florida. So I will have to post those ones. I love these girls with all my heart. They have been my best friends since 6th grade and I will always consider them to be closest to me, even though the years that have gone by and the adults we have become to be have changed us a little, but throughout all that we are still always there for eachother. No matter how different we become or how far apart we have to be they will always be my best friends. :) < 3
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Day 2::
The reason behind my blog name...
That's an easy answer. Dear Deployment, I hate you..
Just what it says, I hate deployment. Mark went on deployment at the beginning of June, and I didn't start this blog at that time, but that's when I changed the name to this one. He will be back soon and then I will be able to change the name!
We love our Navy man!
That's an easy answer. Dear Deployment, I hate you..
Just what it says, I hate deployment. Mark went on deployment at the beginning of June, and I didn't start this blog at that time, but that's when I changed the name to this one. He will be back soon and then I will be able to change the name!
We love our Navy man!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Day 1::
A recent picture of myself and 15 interesting facts.... eek I hope I can make it to 15.
1 - I am a Navy wife.
2 - My favorite color is always changing. I don't think I really have one favorite color, it's usually a mix of colors that I like together or something.
3 - I have an amazing little boy who makes me smile every day.
4 - I am addicted to the computer, even though I usually have nothing to do on it most of the time.
5 - I am actually excited to be back in school.
6 - My favorite food is probably hot cheetos.
7 - I also freakin love candy.
8 - Mark and I have been together for over 6 years now, I think it was meant to be. <3
9 - I plan to have at least 1 more child, and I am hoping it is a girl, but if not then I will try one more time. :)
10 - I love scary movies but I hate being scared.
11 - I hate bugs, no matter what they are, especially if it is flying.
12 - I plan on being a better wife when we get back into our own lives in Jacksonville.
13 - I don't have many friends, but of the few that are closest to me, I would never trade them for the world.
14 - I am very determined when it comes to carrying out my goals for the future.
15 - I prefer being an adult to a teenager, but there are still times that I wish life didn't come with so many responsibilities.
1 - I am a Navy wife.
2 - My favorite color is always changing. I don't think I really have one favorite color, it's usually a mix of colors that I like together or something.
3 - I have an amazing little boy who makes me smile every day.
4 - I am addicted to the computer, even though I usually have nothing to do on it most of the time.
5 - I am actually excited to be back in school.
6 - My favorite food is probably hot cheetos.
7 - I also freakin love candy.
8 - Mark and I have been together for over 6 years now, I think it was meant to be. <3
9 - I plan to have at least 1 more child, and I am hoping it is a girl, but if not then I will try one more time. :)
10 - I love scary movies but I hate being scared.
11 - I hate bugs, no matter what they are, especially if it is flying.
12 - I plan on being a better wife when we get back into our own lives in Jacksonville.
13 - I don't have many friends, but of the few that are closest to me, I would never trade them for the world.
14 - I am very determined when it comes to carrying out my goals for the future.
15 - I prefer being an adult to a teenager, but there are still times that I wish life didn't come with so many responsibilities.
30 day challenge
I think this is going to be pretty fun.
I need something to keep me into this thing. :)
Here are the daily prompts for 30 days of me:
day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind you blog name
day 3- a picture of you and your friends
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere youve been to
day 6- favorite super hero and why
day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why
day 9- something youre proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- another picture of you and your friends
day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- another picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave for a lot
day 24- a letter to your parents
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- what do you think about your friends
day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge
day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
day 29- in this past month, what have you learned
day 30- you favorite song
I need something to keep me into this thing. :)
Here are the daily prompts for 30 days of me:
day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind you blog name
day 3- a picture of you and your friends
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere youve been to
day 6- favorite super hero and why
day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why
day 9- something youre proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- another picture of you and your friends
day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- another picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave for a lot
day 24- a letter to your parents
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- what do you think about your friends
day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge
day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
day 29- in this past month, what have you learned
day 30- you favorite song
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
And there's no one that comes close to you...
I started school this week. I am very happy. This is something I needed, definitely. It sucks having to leave my little one for 3 hours, but it is also nice to get a break now and then. And in the end this is all for him. :) I had to start my online classes on Monday, Spanish and Psychology. I was pretty nervous about both. Spanish seems like it is pretty simple though, but I am scared to do the oral assignments :S. Ha. Psychology also doesn't seem TOO hard as long as I keep up with the assignments, but it is definitely going to be plenty of reading and writing. I also feel like I am not smart or .. deep-thinking.. enough for that class. But I'm sure I'll do fine.
And then yesterday was my first day of campus classes, Math and Sociology. They too I think will be pretty simple as long as I keep up with my assignments. Well math is always easy for me once I get the hang of it. I don't think sociology will be a whole lot of writing, but it does seem like it will be a little fun.
Joseph has been a little sick the last 2 days. :( He has a cold. My poor baby. I am also babysitting again for today. Stephanie has a few places to apply at. So hopefully she gets something soon, and then I can have a job again! :)
Ok I better go Melody just woke up from her nap. Time to get off.
And then yesterday was my first day of campus classes, Math and Sociology. They too I think will be pretty simple as long as I keep up with my assignments. Well math is always easy for me once I get the hang of it. I don't think sociology will be a whole lot of writing, but it does seem like it will be a little fun.
Joseph has been a little sick the last 2 days. :( He has a cold. My poor baby. I am also babysitting again for today. Stephanie has a few places to apply at. So hopefully she gets something soon, and then I can have a job again! :)
Ok I better go Melody just woke up from her nap. Time to get off.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
It's a fuel to the fire that should never burn
School starts in just over a week.. how exciting. I bought some of my school supplies and a few of my books already. I also found out I got an easy Spanish teacher so that's very much a relief. :)
So far my diet is going pretty well. Not really moving as fast as I'd like but I'm also not pushing myself AS hard as I did in the past. I have still lost and I'm ok with the progress I have so far. I haven't been very hungry at all lately either, which makes me feel happy. I hope it continues.
I can't even concentrate. Veronica has gotten me in love with this guy's voice, Jonny Craig. She listens to him a lot and I've always been interested but never actually sat down and listened. So I finally downloaded the cd, and I love it. It's pretty addicting.
I finally decided it was time to stop putting my feelings on hold for my dad, and emailed him. It was a very long and in depth letter. I got everything out that I have been wanting to say to him. I was waiting for him to finally come to me so I could do it but he never did. And it wasn't good for me holding it in for so long, it was constantly eating at me, all my feelings that I wanted him to know. So I had to do it. At the end I said not to respond to me by email, and that if this was really important to him he will come to me the right way to get things right with me again. I also warned him that even if he does, I still may not be able to forgive right away, but I will respect him for finally coming to me. It will definitely take me a long time to let this go.
Ugh.. I need to find a damn counselor already.
I guess I'm done.. having lunch with Mari in a bit. Subway.. yay!
So far my diet is going pretty well. Not really moving as fast as I'd like but I'm also not pushing myself AS hard as I did in the past. I have still lost and I'm ok with the progress I have so far. I haven't been very hungry at all lately either, which makes me feel happy. I hope it continues.
I can't even concentrate. Veronica has gotten me in love with this guy's voice, Jonny Craig. She listens to him a lot and I've always been interested but never actually sat down and listened. So I finally downloaded the cd, and I love it. It's pretty addicting.
I finally decided it was time to stop putting my feelings on hold for my dad, and emailed him. It was a very long and in depth letter. I got everything out that I have been wanting to say to him. I was waiting for him to finally come to me so I could do it but he never did. And it wasn't good for me holding it in for so long, it was constantly eating at me, all my feelings that I wanted him to know. So I had to do it. At the end I said not to respond to me by email, and that if this was really important to him he will come to me the right way to get things right with me again. I also warned him that even if he does, I still may not be able to forgive right away, but I will respect him for finally coming to me. It will definitely take me a long time to let this go.
Ugh.. I need to find a damn counselor already.
I guess I'm done.. having lunch with Mari in a bit. Subway.. yay!
Monday, August 9, 2010
I left you with one promise
The last few days have been swell, for the most part. Mark and I had a little trouble along the way but it's over with for now. He is VERY adamant about me getting some of this weight off. And I am for sure but I don't want him to be nagging me about it. It makes me feel like crap. But whatever. I have now REALLY started doing it. I've been working out at home a lot and I got Joey's forward facing stroller so I get to start using that now and taking him to the duck pond. Cilla said 3 times around the duck pond is a mile so if I did about 4 miles there and then to and from her house is a mile in all so that will be 5 miles! I'm excited to start that. I was going to go walking today but by the time I finished my dinner it was already getting close to getting dark and I don't want to walk in the dark alone. Oh yea and I started my diet up again. Today was day 1 and so far I feel great. I feel a little hungry right now but I can deal. I have drank a lot of water already and will drink one more bottle before I go to sleep tonight. I can't wait to see what results I have at the end of the week. Hopefully this diet works as good as it did the last time I did it. But I worked out a lot a lot that time, so I need to for sure get my working out in.
I got my financial aid stuff situated as well. I am so happy this is coming together and school is getting closer. My financial aid was a little off from a fee that shouldn't have been there. With that fee I would have probably gotten about 100 or so back after my classes got paid for. But I fixed it all today and if I am seeing correctly I should get almost 2000 back after classes are paid. I don't want to count on that though so I am saying at least 1000. But checks get mailed out this Friday so we'll see. That would be AWESOME, whether it's 1000 or 2000, both would be so nice. Classes start in 2 weeks. I can't wait!
Well, a lot has also been going on with my dad. Not involving me but just a lot of bull. I am so tired of him, he doesn't care about anyone but himself and his bitch. I hope they both get what they deserve. He is a very pathetic person to pick his whore over his kids. I hate him and could care less what happens to him at this point. If he EVER decides to finally try to sit and have a long talk with me and get everything out and let me get everything out to him, maybe I can forgive him, but right now he could go on with his life and I'll go on with mine, without each other. It does make me sad, I don't want him in my life, but I do at the same time. He's my dad, but I don't choose to call him my dad anymore, he doesn't deserve to be my dad. I deserve a much better dad than that. A dad doesn't do what he did, he doesn't mistreat his childrens' mother the way he did. He doesn't deserve the title of dad.
That's all. ... this suddenly turned into an angry journal. Oh well.
I got my financial aid stuff situated as well. I am so happy this is coming together and school is getting closer. My financial aid was a little off from a fee that shouldn't have been there. With that fee I would have probably gotten about 100 or so back after my classes got paid for. But I fixed it all today and if I am seeing correctly I should get almost 2000 back after classes are paid. I don't want to count on that though so I am saying at least 1000. But checks get mailed out this Friday so we'll see. That would be AWESOME, whether it's 1000 or 2000, both would be so nice. Classes start in 2 weeks. I can't wait!
Well, a lot has also been going on with my dad. Not involving me but just a lot of bull. I am so tired of him, he doesn't care about anyone but himself and his bitch. I hope they both get what they deserve. He is a very pathetic person to pick his whore over his kids. I hate him and could care less what happens to him at this point. If he EVER decides to finally try to sit and have a long talk with me and get everything out and let me get everything out to him, maybe I can forgive him, but right now he could go on with his life and I'll go on with mine, without each other. It does make me sad, I don't want him in my life, but I do at the same time. He's my dad, but I don't choose to call him my dad anymore, he doesn't deserve to be my dad. I deserve a much better dad than that. A dad doesn't do what he did, he doesn't mistreat his childrens' mother the way he did. He doesn't deserve the title of dad.
That's all. ... this suddenly turned into an angry journal. Oh well.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I could really use a wish right now.....
A lot has gone down since I was last here. Illinois was fun... the ride to and from definitely wasn't, but actually being there was nice. I was happy to see my grandpa and grandma and also Bea and Jessica. I was so proud of my Joey the whole time, he did so well. He also started getting his first tooth while we were there. He is now getting his 2nd, right next to that one. So cute!
We came back home and I had decided that I was for sure going to move in with Priscilla because I couldn't take it anymore, being around my mom and her problems and all of the drama going on the in the house. I didn't have my set day yet but I knew I wanted to soon. Well within the first week my mom messed up bad enough to make me leave. Too much to explain but I am done with it all. I have pretty much completely cut my dad out of my life. I want nothing to do with him ever, don't want to talk to him, don't want to see him, nothing. And I'm fine with it right now, I can live without him. So I came to stay with Priscilla, and so far I like it here. It's a little hard keeping Joey out of trouble, he's becoming so mischievous now.
Mark is in Africa now. He is still able to call me pretty often which I am happy about. I miss him so much. :(
Oh yea! I was FINALLY able to register for my classes. I'm so excited. At least my financial aid should be a little extra money for me. I am going to take Intermediate Algebra, Introduction to Sociology, General Psychology, and Elementary Spanish. Math and Sociology will be in class and the other 2 I am taking online. I hope I can do it! I hope I'm not overdoing it. Wish me luck!!!
Oh and Jennifer's sister has found a good job she wants to take, so I will be her official babysitter starting next week. Her mom is going to be paying me. It will be $150 a week for the first 2 weeks which is her training, and then $120 a week after that. I can't wait.. more extra moneys :). I hate waking up but that's not a big deal, I have to do it so whatever.
Well that's whats been going on lately. Hopefully things with my mom get a little better, counseling starts next week so I have that to look forward to as well. Ciao.
We came back home and I had decided that I was for sure going to move in with Priscilla because I couldn't take it anymore, being around my mom and her problems and all of the drama going on the in the house. I didn't have my set day yet but I knew I wanted to soon. Well within the first week my mom messed up bad enough to make me leave. Too much to explain but I am done with it all. I have pretty much completely cut my dad out of my life. I want nothing to do with him ever, don't want to talk to him, don't want to see him, nothing. And I'm fine with it right now, I can live without him. So I came to stay with Priscilla, and so far I like it here. It's a little hard keeping Joey out of trouble, he's becoming so mischievous now.
Mark is in Africa now. He is still able to call me pretty often which I am happy about. I miss him so much. :(
Oh yea! I was FINALLY able to register for my classes. I'm so excited. At least my financial aid should be a little extra money for me. I am going to take Intermediate Algebra, Introduction to Sociology, General Psychology, and Elementary Spanish. Math and Sociology will be in class and the other 2 I am taking online. I hope I can do it! I hope I'm not overdoing it. Wish me luck!!!
Oh and Jennifer's sister has found a good job she wants to take, so I will be her official babysitter starting next week. Her mom is going to be paying me. It will be $150 a week for the first 2 weeks which is her training, and then $120 a week after that. I can't wait.. more extra moneys :). I hate waking up but that's not a big deal, I have to do it so whatever.
Well that's whats been going on lately. Hopefully things with my mom get a little better, counseling starts next week so I have that to look forward to as well. Ciao.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Remember when......
Tomorrow morning we are leaving to Illinois. I SHOULD be sleeping by now, especially since I am in charge of driving most of the way. But of course I can never fall asleep early anymore. I just can't wait to get there, it's going to be very nice. I love being there, no worries.
I haven't talked to Mark since Tuesday, I miss him so much. I just can't wait for this deployment to be over already. I want him back. I still don't even know if he got his package yet. I just miss his smell, and I miss our stupid arguments, and I miss picking up after him, and I miss his mirror messages after he takes a shower :), I miss his kisses, and I miss seeing him with Joseph, I miss sleeping with him every night, and waiting for his call that he's ready to be picked up from work, and every time he worked so hard to cook a good dinner when he was off, I miss his jokes, and seeing him play with Lucy around the apartment, and I miss his hugs. :( I better stop, I might start crying. At least I get to see him everyday in this beautiful son of ours, who looks just like his daddy. I can't wait to see him again. For now I just can't wait to talk to him again. Sometimes when we go a few days without talking it feels like months. .........I love you so much Mark. :(
Well Joseph just woke up crying.. he wants me to come lay down with him, so I better get to it. < 3
I haven't talked to Mark since Tuesday, I miss him so much. I just can't wait for this deployment to be over already. I want him back. I still don't even know if he got his package yet. I just miss his smell, and I miss our stupid arguments, and I miss picking up after him, and I miss his mirror messages after he takes a shower :), I miss his kisses, and I miss seeing him with Joseph, I miss sleeping with him every night, and waiting for his call that he's ready to be picked up from work, and every time he worked so hard to cook a good dinner when he was off, I miss his jokes, and seeing him play with Lucy around the apartment, and I miss his hugs. :( I better stop, I might start crying. At least I get to see him everyday in this beautiful son of ours, who looks just like his daddy. I can't wait to see him again. For now I just can't wait to talk to him again. Sometimes when we go a few days without talking it feels like months. .........I love you so much Mark. :(
Well Joseph just woke up crying.. he wants me to come lay down with him, so I better get to it. < 3
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
My tattoo won't stop itching....
I finally got my little booger down for a nap, so now I can update. So my 4th of July was pretty fun. Well the whole first part of the day, I did what I normally do; I just sat around the house most of the day. Then Priscilla invited me to go with her and her brother to Sea World for the fireworks show. So me and Joey went. I invited Veronica also because she was gonna be the only one home that night all bored. I was free for military but I thought I was gonna have to pay for her, come to find out I could get her in free also. That was awesome. We went pretty late so we didn't get to do a whole lot. We got on the Great White and I mustered up some courage and got on the Steel Eel. I wasn't even thinking about it, then once the ride started I was freaking out. Ha.. I'm such a puss. It wasn't horrible, I've been on it before but I was so scared. Ugh I just hate that feeling. Anyway, then we waited for the fireworks to start, it was a nice show. Then it was a bitch getting out of there and getting out of the parking lot. Nice night.
Mark still hasn't gotten his package. Well as of yesterday at least. I hope he gets it today. I really can't wait to be able to start talking to him. Well as long as he actually uses it.
I NEED to get Joey's shots, crap. I'm like a month late. I'm gonna go tomorrow for sure.
I also need to start getting stuff ready for our Illinois trip. I mean I guess I can get all the packing done the day before. We don't need that much stuff. But I need to use my WIC and go get all my formula. Blah... I don't think I have much to talk about. I'm bored.
Mark still hasn't gotten his package. Well as of yesterday at least. I hope he gets it today. I really can't wait to be able to start talking to him. Well as long as he actually uses it.
I NEED to get Joey's shots, crap. I'm like a month late. I'm gonna go tomorrow for sure.
I also need to start getting stuff ready for our Illinois trip. I mean I guess I can get all the packing done the day before. We don't need that much stuff. But I need to use my WIC and go get all my formula. Blah... I don't think I have much to talk about. I'm bored.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
I hate thinking of titles... :S
Lately I have been thinking about what we are going to do when he gets back and we go back to Jacksonville. I would love to be able to get a house instead of an apartment. I hate having no space and, sometimes, little privacy, and not having a backyard or my own parking space. Just little things, but also the fact that some houses have even cheaper monthly payments than an apartment! And they still look really cute. I was looking on hotpads a while ago, first for rent, then I decided to switch it to sales. I found such a cute house in the Argyle Forest area, which I like, for sale that is only $512 a month. It's a 2 bedroom 2 bath and 1040 sq feet. I realize that by the time we get back there that there is a small chance it will still be available, but at least I am seeing that there is some opportunity there. And I think I will continue to keep an eye on that area, and as the time gets closer I will start trying to make a decision. I need to talk to Mark about this first of course, but I think it's a good idea. I need to talk to my mom about it also, I need more information on how to go about buying a home. And then I can determine how long I will need to go back home when he gets back to look at the house(s) and make a decision and start doing paperwork.
I really hope we can get a home. At first I was just wanting to rent a home, mainly because we don't know how long we will be in Jacksonville. But Mark was saying if we get a home he would want to buy because he doesn't like the fact of paying for something that we will never own. Which makes sense, but at the same time we will never own it completely anyway. It's going to be our first home, you never stay in your first home forever, plus I don't want to live in Florida forever. I want to come back home to Texas. So yea, it's going to require a lot of thinking and communication, but I think it's a good idea.
So I have GOT to start getting this weight off, like seriously. I would love to lose at least 50 lbs by the time he comes home. I know when you think 50 lbs in 5 months it sounds impossible. But I just have a hard time seeing it as being impossible. When you break it down, there is about 4.5 to 5 weeks in a month. So that would make it about 2-3 pounds a week. Making it around 10 lbs a month, and to me that just doesn't sound that bad. It just takes a lot of discipline and hard work. Which is not easy for me, but I guess even if I don't reach 50 lbs, even 30 would be good enough for me. I won't stop there of course because either way I still need to lose to get to what I want to be. I just have to do it!!!!
I don't have much more to say since I was just here yesterday. Ciao.
I really hope we can get a home. At first I was just wanting to rent a home, mainly because we don't know how long we will be in Jacksonville. But Mark was saying if we get a home he would want to buy because he doesn't like the fact of paying for something that we will never own. Which makes sense, but at the same time we will never own it completely anyway. It's going to be our first home, you never stay in your first home forever, plus I don't want to live in Florida forever. I want to come back home to Texas. So yea, it's going to require a lot of thinking and communication, but I think it's a good idea.
So I have GOT to start getting this weight off, like seriously. I would love to lose at least 50 lbs by the time he comes home. I know when you think 50 lbs in 5 months it sounds impossible. But I just have a hard time seeing it as being impossible. When you break it down, there is about 4.5 to 5 weeks in a month. So that would make it about 2-3 pounds a week. Making it around 10 lbs a month, and to me that just doesn't sound that bad. It just takes a lot of discipline and hard work. Which is not easy for me, but I guess even if I don't reach 50 lbs, even 30 would be good enough for me. I won't stop there of course because either way I still need to lose to get to what I want to be. I just have to do it!!!!
I don't have much more to say since I was just here yesterday. Ciao.
Friday, July 2, 2010
One month down....
5 more to go! You know 5 months really isn't long at all. On my "donut of mysery" it says the remaining time is only 21 weeks.. that seems like nothing! I can't wait till it's only like a few days... I can't wait till it's time to buy my plane ticket back to Jax to greet him! Ugh... I get excited just thinking about it. It'll come quick I know it.
So I've kinda started with my bow-tique. :) I've made about 5 bows and a flower clippie. Just for starters, I just today ordered the rest of the supplies I'll need. So hopefully it gets here soon so I can really start. And people are already liking them also. My cousin sort of advertised me on Facebook and a few girls were asking about them and when I will start selling. So I already have some interested customers. I'm sure it'll take me a while to be very good at it, but the ones I've made are pretty good for beginner bows. So I'm excited about that, and this thing all coming together. Hopefully I can make this money back that I spent for everything. :S Hopefully Mark won't have a shitfit about it, he shouldn't though! I told him all about this and that when we get paid all I want is to buy my bow stuff and that's it, I wouldn't spend any money on myself for clothes or anything. So he better not be!
I can't wait to go to Illinois next week. One week left, wow. I finally get to see my grandpa, been 2 years, and him and grandma Andy and Jessica will all get to meet Joseph for the first time. It's exciting. Everyone adores him. Jessica can't wait to meet him. And it's just so relaxing there, I love being there. You sort of feel like you have no worries. Idk, at least I did last time I was there, but then again I will still only 18 and pretty much didn't really have very many worries. So yea... I guess that's not accurate. But it will be fun anyway.
Well, let's see what Mark yells at me about tomorrow. :) Just kidding. I hope he calls cuz he didn't call today. I love him, I miss him. :( Come home!!!
So I've kinda started with my bow-tique. :) I've made about 5 bows and a flower clippie. Just for starters, I just today ordered the rest of the supplies I'll need. So hopefully it gets here soon so I can really start. And people are already liking them also. My cousin sort of advertised me on Facebook and a few girls were asking about them and when I will start selling. So I already have some interested customers. I'm sure it'll take me a while to be very good at it, but the ones I've made are pretty good for beginner bows. So I'm excited about that, and this thing all coming together. Hopefully I can make this money back that I spent for everything. :S Hopefully Mark won't have a shitfit about it, he shouldn't though! I told him all about this and that when we get paid all I want is to buy my bow stuff and that's it, I wouldn't spend any money on myself for clothes or anything. So he better not be!
I can't wait to go to Illinois next week. One week left, wow. I finally get to see my grandpa, been 2 years, and him and grandma Andy and Jessica will all get to meet Joseph for the first time. It's exciting. Everyone adores him. Jessica can't wait to meet him. And it's just so relaxing there, I love being there. You sort of feel like you have no worries. Idk, at least I did last time I was there, but then again I will still only 18 and pretty much didn't really have very many worries. So yea... I guess that's not accurate. But it will be fun anyway.
Well, let's see what Mark yells at me about tomorrow. :) Just kidding. I hope he calls cuz he didn't call today. I love him, I miss him. :( Come home!!!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Dear deployment, you freakin suck.....
Well I hadn't talked to Mark since tuesday. He wasn't able to call for 3 days until today, and what did we do the whole time we talked, BOTH TIMES, argue!!! Ugh, it was bullshit. I got a tattoo tuesday, which he knew I had been planning to get since months ago, but since I didn't tell him I was getting it THAT DAY while I was talking to him, I was in the wrong. Which, I didn't know I was getting it that day until later on when I found out it was the only day the girl could do it. And I understand why he was upset, but it ruined our whole day of talking to eachother. All we did was argue, and he made me seem like a bitch, not having to do with the tattoo situation, just for other things. And that made me so mad. Then he threw in how everyone else thinks I'm so mean too, not just him. Well he needs to really stop doing things like that. He does that a lot. Just because you're mad at me don't bring other people into it. Blah, today just sucked very bad. That's all.
Anyway, I did get my tattoo. One of my tattoos that I am getting while I'm home. It came out so pretty. It is a cherry blossom tree with the word LOVE written underneath. I love it so much! And it was only 40 bucks! I can't wait to get my other one.
Also, I'm so excited. I made a plan for myself. I am going to start making bows and headbands and little beanies and stuff like for little girls. I have never tried making them before but on payday I am going to buy some of the supplies and just test it out and see if it's as easy as it looks. I looked up and saved a bunch of tutorials on youtube, so I have that. Then I'm going to sell them online and maybe see if people at my mom's work have babies or know anyone with babies. I can't wait. Hopefully I get some good profit from doing that. And they are so freakin cute so since I love hair accessories I will probably keep a few of them for myself. :)
Well I better go, Joey is being crazy right now. Bed time. Ciao. <3
Anyway, I did get my tattoo. One of my tattoos that I am getting while I'm home. It came out so pretty. It is a cherry blossom tree with the word LOVE written underneath. I love it so much! And it was only 40 bucks! I can't wait to get my other one.
Also, I'm so excited. I made a plan for myself. I am going to start making bows and headbands and little beanies and stuff like for little girls. I have never tried making them before but on payday I am going to buy some of the supplies and just test it out and see if it's as easy as it looks. I looked up and saved a bunch of tutorials on youtube, so I have that. Then I'm going to sell them online and maybe see if people at my mom's work have babies or know anyone with babies. I can't wait. Hopefully I get some good profit from doing that. And they are so freakin cute so since I love hair accessories I will probably keep a few of them for myself. :)
Well I better go, Joey is being crazy right now. Bed time. Ciao. <3
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
How do you do it, make me feel like I do......
So lately Joey has been meeting so many milestones... it makes me so excited! He FINALLY rolled over from his back to his tummy today without help, twice! I was so happy. He is also sitting up now by himself. He is still a little wobbly sometimes, today he fell over and hurt himself on his toy. But he's ok. He is also eating baby food more regularly now. He is not liking a lot of the vegetables, but hopefully he'll get used to them. OH and!.. he is starting to stand also. If I stand him up and put him up against my legs or against the couch he will stand there for a little while. The jumper I got him is really helping his leg muscles get strong. He's making me so proud! :) My little munchkin. < 3
Mark just found out today he is getting moved to a different site. Which sucks for me because I don't think I'll be able to talk to him everyday like I do right now. Also his pay is not going to be as much there, the per diem is going from $55 a day or so where he is now, to like $3 or $5 a day. He will begin to get hazard pay which he doesn't get right now but still. I guess our plan to have extra saved money when he comes home is shot! Ugh. As long as we're able to rid of our debts then I guess that's the most important thing. Plus he is going to be getting a better income tax next year right after he gets home so we still have that to look forward to at least. He isn't leaving until late July though, so we still have another month of the good per diem at least.
Well I should head out. Be back soon.....
Mark just found out today he is getting moved to a different site. Which sucks for me because I don't think I'll be able to talk to him everyday like I do right now. Also his pay is not going to be as much there, the per diem is going from $55 a day or so where he is now, to like $3 or $5 a day. He will begin to get hazard pay which he doesn't get right now but still. I guess our plan to have extra saved money when he comes home is shot! Ugh. As long as we're able to rid of our debts then I guess that's the most important thing. Plus he is going to be getting a better income tax next year right after he gets home so we still have that to look forward to at least. He isn't leaving until late July though, so we still have another month of the good per diem at least.
Well I should head out. Be back soon.....
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Such a disgrace..
Things are going good with me and Mark. He is starting the real thing tomorrow, 12 on 12 off days everyday. Hopefully I can still talk to him everyday. If not then I GUESS it won't be a horrible thing, it would be good for us, so we can be more excited when we finally see each other. Speaking of which, I am still going to try to go see him sometime before school starts, sometime during July or August after we get back from Illinois. I hope I can!
Joey is doing so good. He's sitting up now! <333 He can sit up for quite a while by himself, sometimes he'll lose his balance and fall over but for the most part he's so good at it. He's still not rolling over :( but I'm sure he'll get it soon, hopefully. He's just lazy, hehe.
Well my birthday was this past Sunday. What a day... my first surprise of the day (2 am) was of my mom waking me up to tell me my dad is gone because he was caught on the phone with someone, making this the 2nd time he has cheated on her (that she has proof of.) He left in anger and she threw his stuff out. So the whole day was just about that, I didn't have much of a birthday. Which I wouldn't even care, if it wasn't for the reason that it was. Now he is moved out and my mom is never taking him back and he is now filing for divorce. It is all happening so quick, it's hard to believe sometimes. I hate that this is all happening while I am here, but at the same time I'm glad, because my mom would be having SOO much more of a harder time if I weren't here to help her and be here for her to talk to and vent to. So I don't know what's going to happen next, it's just day by day right now. I hope things don't get really ugly. I hope they remember I do have a son here.
Anyway, pray for us... my mom mainly. We need it.
Joey is doing so good. He's sitting up now! <333 He can sit up for quite a while by himself, sometimes he'll lose his balance and fall over but for the most part he's so good at it. He's still not rolling over :( but I'm sure he'll get it soon, hopefully. He's just lazy, hehe.
Well my birthday was this past Sunday. What a day... my first surprise of the day (2 am) was of my mom waking me up to tell me my dad is gone because he was caught on the phone with someone, making this the 2nd time he has cheated on her (that she has proof of.) He left in anger and she threw his stuff out. So the whole day was just about that, I didn't have much of a birthday. Which I wouldn't even care, if it wasn't for the reason that it was. Now he is moved out and my mom is never taking him back and he is now filing for divorce. It is all happening so quick, it's hard to believe sometimes. I hate that this is all happening while I am here, but at the same time I'm glad, because my mom would be having SOO much more of a harder time if I weren't here to help her and be here for her to talk to and vent to. So I don't know what's going to happen next, it's just day by day right now. I hope things don't get really ugly. I hope they remember I do have a son here.
Anyway, pray for us... my mom mainly. We need it.
Friday, June 11, 2010
It's on!
Well I woke up to a "She's Everything" by Brad Paisley playing on my phone. Guess that what that meant.... Mark was my wake up call!! That was so nice to hear his voice, especially since I didn't get a call yesterday. He promised he would call me tonight (well it will be about 5pm here, but midnight for him) to say goodnight. He told me about his day yesterday and how they went out in the town of Catania. He said that the people there drive very crazy. There are basically no rules people just do what they please. And no cops to stop them. Which kind of scares me, hopefully he doesn't get hurt driving around out there. Anyway, he likes it, I can't wait till he gets his camera and laptop so he can send me pictures. I want to see how it is there. He said the base is close to a volcano, apparently you can see it from there, and you can even see smoke coming out of it. That's awesome.
I just signed up online a few minutes ago for Planet Fitness. I need to stop putting it off. So I got my membership now, and I want to start today. I can ask my grandma to watch the baby. I hate leaving him so whenever I do go I think I'm gonna give myself an hour maybe hour and a half each time. Which will go by fast. I don't want to be apart from him very long ever. I end up missing him too much even though initially I feel like it's good to have a break, I just can't do it for long. :) Love that little boy of mine! Well, just wanted to update on that. My 5 month weight loss journey begins today! Wish me luck!!!
I just signed up online a few minutes ago for Planet Fitness. I need to stop putting it off. So I got my membership now, and I want to start today. I can ask my grandma to watch the baby. I hate leaving him so whenever I do go I think I'm gonna give myself an hour maybe hour and a half each time. Which will go by fast. I don't want to be apart from him very long ever. I end up missing him too much even though initially I feel like it's good to have a break, I just can't do it for long. :) Love that little boy of mine! Well, just wanted to update on that. My 5 month weight loss journey begins today! Wish me luck!!!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Dear Deployment, I hate you....
Well, the title explains it all. Daddy is now on deployment, and it sucks! But we are getting through. It was hard to say goodbye, but I don't feel that sad. I guess because I know 6 months is a breeze. I just hope that everything goes well during the 6 months and nothing happens to jeopardize our marriage. I trust him, but there's always that little worry in the back of your mind that something can happen. So far he says he likes it. He has been working and then working out after work everyday. That's good for him I guess it keeps him busy, I just don't want him to overwork himself. I need to start going to the gym.. I need to stop saying I need to go and just go. But I don't really know how much I will have pay at the initial activation. So.. now I just wait until the 15th and I will finally get a membership, no more excuses, I promise! I refuse to look the same way I looked when he left when he gets back. I want him to come home and be proud of the wife that is there to welcome him home.
Anyway, little Joseph is getting so big. He actually came home 2 days after my last post. He is 6 months now.. I can't believe it! My little man is growing up too fast, :). Daddy misses him so much. I can't wait until he can get a laptop and use skype so he can see him. Well, I am really going to keep up with this now because I am turning this into my deployment journal. So I'll be back soon.
We love you and miss you!
Anyway, little Joseph is getting so big. He actually came home 2 days after my last post. He is 6 months now.. I can't believe it! My little man is growing up too fast, :). Daddy misses him so much. I can't wait until he can get a laptop and use skype so he can see him. Well, I am really going to keep up with this now because I am turning this into my deployment journal. So I'll be back soon.
We love you and miss you!
Monday, January 4, 2010
hello again
I completely forgot about this thing. This last few months have been really crazy. When I started this journal I wasn't even pregnant yet. So since then I got pregnant, found out I was due Christmas eve, went home to Texas for a visit 2 times, found out I was having a boy, had my first year anniversary, found out my son had gastroschisis, moved to a nicer apartment, and finally had my baby boy on December 8th, 2009 by c-section. It was a very hectic but fun, exciting, and blessed year. We named our son Joseph Antonio Gonzales. He was 5 lbs 10 oz and 17.5 inches long. A week after he was born he had his surgery to close up his little tummy. Since then recovery has gone so quickly and very well. He had a small bump in the road where his bowels were beginning to look a little dilated again but he is ok now and eating great. He will hopefully be coming home really soon. And we are as ready as we can be at this point. We have everything ready for him here at home. I can't wait until I walk into that NICU and they tell me he is coming home the next day. :D That will be a very exciting moment.
Be back soon.
Be back soon.
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